Kaz Final Reflection

During my time at SIUE and in CODES I have learned an indescribable amount about myself.

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When I first came to college I had no idea what to do with myself. Nothing had gone as I had planned, I was so sure I would end up at UW Madison or UNC Ashville and study something related to mortuary sciences or biology but neither ended up being in the cards. When I decided on SIUE I felt defeated, while I was interested in the CODES program I felt that I’d never be able to find my home in Southern Illinois. I was majoring in geography only because I was so unsure what else to do and joining an experimental program only because I was scared I couldn’t afford college otherwise. When we started working with NGRREC I was excited to focus on environmental science but worried that I may have made the wrong choice. While my changes and acceptances were slow and often tiresome I now realize I can’t imagine sitting here in my third year of college without them

Through CODES I learned…

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  • How to tell my story and the stories of others effectively
  • How to express myself through digital forms
  • How to utilize tools like websites and videos to enhance my storytelling
  • How to lead a group and step back to watch others shine
  • How to set an example and be proud of learning from others
  • How to present in a formal setting

Through NGRREC, I learned…

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  • Why we should care about environmental education
  • Why our history still defines the reality of our communities
  • Why environmental disasters like floods continue to get worse
  • Why we need to preserve our wetlands
  • Why scientists should care
  • Why it’s so hard to get science into policy
  • Why internships are so essential to experience 
  • Why is it a privilege to know all of this

Through classes, I learned

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  • The importance of seeing a world through the lens of our intersectionalities
  • The importance of advocacy for underrepresented groups
  • The importance of ethical urban planning
  • The importance of historically racist housing practices 
  • The importance of art when presenting political arguments
  • The importance of Geography and map-making when visualizing the world
  • The importance of education
  • The importance of empathy
  • The importance of humanity

Through these past 3 years, I have learned…

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  •  I want to pursue a career in Urban Planning to advocate for the creation of mixed-income communities.
  • I want to advocate for the fight for green space that organizations like 10-Minute Walk have started. 
  • I want to point out how continued injustices shape our communities of color. 
  • I want to show organizations the fallacies they continue to push. 
  • I want to prove there is a better way. 
  • I want to fight for those who feel hopeless
  • I want to educate future generations
  • I need to make a difference, no matter how small, even if I can only light someone else’s spark. 
  • I need to help bring a change

Closing Words

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One thing I can say about CODES is that it never has been and never will be what I expected, and I have loved every minute of it. During my time in CODES, I have pushed my boundaries and been met with both shame and success. I feel I have met lifelong friends and mentors. I have had sleepless nights and joyful days. But most importantly I feel that I have made something out of my college career. CODES has presented me with opportunities I may have never been able to find at other universities. CODES may not have been what I wanted when looking at colleges, but I the end I think it was what I needed.