Reflection #3

I will be doing this reflection on the one meeting I had with Daizjah and the 2 archive days that I had. For the meeting with Daizjah I felt a little nervous because I did not know what to expect. I was nervous that maybe this semester would end up like our last one did, with our research failing. I hated that feeling and I really did not want to hear the same outcome. I felt like I was a little quick to judge because I had these prior expectations from my prior research. I did try to keep an open mind because I knew it could prevent barriers between my relationship with Daizjah if I didn’t. I was honestly surprised by how well the new plan she gave us was and I definitely grew more confident and positive the more she explained the contexts to me. I think the more open minded and positive I remain about my research, the better relationship with our research and our partners we have. When I went to the first archive day I was honestly excited because I had never done one before. I was ready to learn new things and continue my research. I was still a little nervous because I did not have any expectations for how it was going to turn out or if it was even going to be helpful. The archivists in the archives made me feel much better as they showed me exactly what to do. The more I searched through the archives, the more positive I felt because I kept finding vert relative information. The second time I went to the archives I was not nervous because I had been there before and it was successful. I was confident that I was going to find a lot of information, but unfortunately I did not. It didn’t make me feel less confident, because I know that I found a lot of information the first time. I felt a lot more confident knowing that the research I did was helpful to my partners. I think I am doing really well staying positive about the outlook of my research project, especially given the context of last semester. Also, I think I did really good at the archives being able to dissect the information that I needed from the titles they gave me. I think I am also doing good in class as I turn in my assignments, show up, and participate. I feel like I could focus a lot better in this class. It is really hard for me to focus and do my assignments in class because I like to talk. Also, I feel like I could be more motivated. I have a hard time showing up to school sometimes and doing my assignments, but I am very proud of myself for being able to communicate this to Dr. Shea and be honest. Even if it can be hard for me, I still put as much effort as I can and I thank Dr. Shea for always understanding.